Tuesday 25 October 2016

Button Love

He’d been chewing on his button again. He knew he shouldn’t his mother had shouted at him enough, his father slapped him.

‘Stop chewing your buttons, you’re ruining your clothes and we don’t have money to buy new ones!’
‘Stop chewing on your buttons, it’ll make your teeth grow funny!’
‘Stop chewing on your buttons, you’re not a baby any more!’
‘Stop chewing your buttons, you’ll swallow one one day and choke!’

Shouting, shouting, SHOUTING. Originally it had been his parents screaming at each other that made him reach for the solace of a button. But then it was his older sister joining in the arguments, making things worse.

So sodden material pressed against his cheek, the hard comfort of the button in his teeth, a snotty running nose and crying eyes got him through the painful noise.

And now, as an adult faced with his problems he still reached quietly for the quiet emotional prop when he was alone. This time as the tears ran down his face, as breathlessness turned his face purple and desperate retching wouldn’t work one childhood shout returned to haunt him.


‘Stop chewing your buttons, you’ll swallow one one day and choke!’

Saturday 22 October 2016

The Patient Patient

He sat, slumped in plastic chair with his spine slowly taking the shape of the uncomfortably formed backrest. He flicked disinterestedly through a glossy magazine filled with celebrities he didn’t know getting married to celebrities he didn’t care about. It was worn, torn and dated but about the only thing to focus on other than quite how long he had already been waiting.

‘Mr Grey, Mr Grey?’

He sat upright and placed the magazine on the seat next to him. He began to rise as she caught his eye.

‘Ah Mr Grey,’ she said ‘We shouldn’t be too much longer. Would you like a magazine?’ She pointed to a small table that resembled the produce of a paper shredder.

‘Any clues how much longer it might be,’ he asked realising his voice sounded as though he wasn’t sure he would live that long.

‘It really shouldn’t be that long now. Let me make sure we’ve got all your records.’ She turned and walked off towards the office.

He sat for a moment then glanced at the clock. He found it hard to work out quite how long it was since he had first sat down. He flicked his eyes around the room. There was no one left from when he had come in. That said many people who had arrived after him had been seen and left.

He got up and stretched. He wanted to do something that would make them register he was still there, still waiting. He walked slowly towards the magazine table and placed the one he had read back on top. He then stared at the fish tank trying to see if there was anything else in there except gravel, weeds and water.

Beyond the tank he noticed an alcove with what appeared to be a comfy chair in it. To give purpose to his change of position to anyone who was observing him he picked up the same magazine he had read and strode over to the chair.

In a moment he realised that this padded chair was infinitely more comfortable than the rigid hard plastic he had endured for god knows how many hours. The muscles in his back seemed to relax as he sank back and opened the tatty journal. Here, half hidden from the others he could at least find peace.

His next moment of clarity was being gently woken by the cleaner. At first he couldn’t make out what she was saying but a glance to clock and the realisation it was light outside explained her look of surprise.


‘Ah well,’ he thought settling back, ‘they open again in half an hour.’