What's in a Word

He was caught. It was as if half of him wanted to do it and the other half was revolted by the thought. He had been putting off making the decision because he knew this was how he was going to feel about it. He was genuinely confused by competing emotions and it was not getting clearer.

He stared at the mobile phone in his hand. Was he going to call her or not? He knew there was a word for this sort of quandary but it was no good trying to put off the decision by becoming a human thesaurus of delay.

Nope, it did not matter that he couldn’t think of the word that meant that state of being unable to make a choice between two alternatives. No, He was going to do, he was going to call her, he was going end this finally and ......... dial Emma.